Monday, July 19, 2010
See When You ask me What Heaven is This comes in Mind
iN one week i found out 2 people i knew have passed away, but two different situations both people i have met few times but talked to them enough to hear a piece of their mind both hustlas both street smart yet somehow this drug game had some piece of them as well ,
both deaths were sudden and none due to drugs and both merely 30 it saddens me cause ive gotten advice from both and i been told the same advice and it shocks me
yet the one i knew less is who inspired me, this man was in a wheelchair but if you met him his attitude doesnt remind you what his misunfortue was , so cocky so confident and so positive , we spoke and he kept being so positive and somehow i felt understood "real recognize real"
he told me to stay how i am with my hustla ambition and to get myself ahead in my education especially with my business minded self, unfortunately he fell in a pool and passed away it torns me cause iwish i knew him better yet somehow if i did i probably be more hurt all i knnow is hes an angel now and i at least got to meet "real"
R.i.p hecor hernandez
r.i.p luis ramos aka rubio
rubio i didnt know you well but i understood you to the point where i want to be more positive in this life i lead
Sunday, July 11, 2010
Friday, July 09, 2010
I wonder how it all began ,
lesbian , gay , dykes , carpet muncher , etc
Its funny cause when i was younger i always said why would i be involved with a woman if i have the same thing, then around the age of 15 i was ADDICTED to another girls LUST
WOMAN and SEX wasnt something i ever thought i would mix , well never say never cause i can consider that my biggest FETISH
Like i really cant understand how a man can find another man attractive, how can you not find another woman sexy? but thats just my opinion
I remember my first time my friend took me to a hotel he had some party going on.. he rented two rooms and i thought one of his friends was sexy... funny cause first time i ended up rolling balls 4 hours later he tells me him and his girl will go to their room , and he ends up leaving me with his sexy friend jeje!
all i know is i go to take a shower and there she goes MOLESTING me.. and nope i didnt stop her it wasnt my first time eating but my first time being pleased by another girl.. it facinated me
from then on lets just say i became the "pussy monster"
See but theres a difference between LOVE and LUST!
i realized i couldnt LOVE another woman like i can LOVE a man... it always was LUST , just the whole sex part is what i would anticipate didnt want anything else, no emotions mixed into it..
i tried lots of times and Nope real LOVE couldnt , then i finally got engaged at 18 to another girl..after 3 months i realized it wasnt for me.. the whole image of me having kids one day thru frozen sperm or just imagining having children raised in a home where theres no FATHER , it scared me honestly , i had to think of the future especially mines since evry move you make makes your fate ...
See SEX between 2 woman is very SENSUAL
SEX with a Man is Animalistic
two different worlds
See i didnt have specific type as long as she knew she was a girl and didnt live thinking she was a dude
What i didnt understand is when lesbians wanna use dildos , sorry it wasnt for me the whole PLASTIC object , see i understand vibrator but DILDO?
for that i always went back to a guy
Lesbianism well whoever first made the move i wanna thank her !
I LOVE LESBIANS!